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18 February 2009 @ 09:18 pm
girls really seem to be an issue for me ight now, i look back on older journals and i see that they mainly were about boys boy boy and about how many i had and how they were never what i wanted or who i wanted them to be.
girls seem to have an issue with me right now. jealousy is something reeking in this house and its making me upset.... i am nothing to be jealosu ofbut since you decidd to tak the time i figured I would take my time to retaliate with my bad ass ness, my walk, my talk, and my smile can kick your ass to peices. i dont need you making my life complicated.
but its cool
i know you wont change
so i will make you learn
12 February 2009 @ 04:37 pm
I dont think I can ever see myself loving myself.
I dont think I can ever see myself thin.
I dont think I can ever see this problem solved.
I dont think I can ever see this wound healed.

I dont know what to do.
I dont know how to do it.
I dont know why it is that I am my worst enemy.
But it hurts.
05 February 2009 @ 05:51 pm
I cant look like you
fuck I can weigh like me
slowly dropping down hill
why are you so jealous of me
run frolic its not what i want
the way you speak bothers me
how can you be like that
oh wait
i am seeing through a mirror
you are mirroring my actions
saying one thing and doing another
how can one be so blind
i look at myself and am disgusted
will things change
can things change
i wish i could change
until thing change other things are forbidden to me
yes that's right
I am punishing myself
for being such a
fucking fatty
02 February 2009 @ 07:26 pm
Jealousy is a terrible thing.
I noticed noticed others behaviors to me REEKING with jealousy.
Dont be hatin...
I am nothing to be jealous of just like any one else!
I had never seen this before, and while I see that I am nothing to be jealous of, I also see that it is the origins of your actions.
Lay back, relax and realize you prolly have something I'd like to have, none of us have it perfect =) lets just happy being us!
30 January 2009 @ 12:49 pm
I despise girls!!!!!!
I mention interest in one boy, one measly little boy and POUNCE she goes from one man her had had laid to the other, the other more Rea interesting one, arg!!!! I dont know whether to call this WAR or to walk away from this immature behavior!!!!!!

30 January 2009 @ 08:36 am
Welcome me, welcome all to my happy blog, the writing source where all the joy that I find in myself will be revealed and where the not so better in me will be healed within myself. I write for no one but me. Its exciting. Where to begin?

I adore my attitude, I like that I can seduce someone with my eyes, and boys instantly get that innocent bad girl vibe from me.
I adore that my laugh changes, showing different stages of funny.
I love that I change so often, sure it scares of a lot of men, but the one man who adores challenges and adjustments, will be the one to stay with me.
I know that though I have my moments of weakness that I am so strong in personality and strength.
I think I have days where I am beautiful.
I dont need to be a girly girl to be feminine. Fuck, I dont even like girly girls.
I have a knack for making men fall in love wit me.
I can rarely sit still for more then 20 min.
I have a fantastic sense of music.

I think I'll come up with more later
24 January 2009 @ 03:43 pm
Mmmmmmmy summer plan:

Greyhound to SanFran
Camp around
Couch surf
Save $$
Return to Seattle in time to Study abroad in Ireland!
23 January 2009 @ 05:59 pm
Maybe, not everything should be posted on MySpace...
Maybe not everything that I have to let out, actually needs to be read and criticized.
Maybe I shouldn't have forgotten about you.
13 October 2005 @ 07:46 pm
My car ran a beautiful week with out neutrision gas brings to an engine. Conner and I were heading to my house to pick up my brother, when I noticed the car slow, and my pressing on the gas caused no sort of combustion. I knew....I was outta gas. Pulling over I repeated the word "shit" too many times to count and Conner laughed as he said "told you so". I pulled over and as conner ran down to the nearest gas station, I called and notified my car maniac dad on my latest mistake. He was overly upset with me. Conner bought me a gas can, and some gas (what a guy), and he hauled it back to my car all the while assurringly holding my cold hand. We added gass and the engine started right up, I added and extra fifteen, there goes the concert tickets, and head down to his house, for he had to be home by the time we got done with out adventure. Got home, and dad told me to get off my ass and get a job.
Current Mood: stressedstressed
Current Music: Belle and Sebastian
13 October 2005 @ 07:43 pm

1. Dress nice when asking for app. (plain)
2. Need referance notes (answers to app. questions)
3. Resume
4. "When would be a good time to check back in?" (not call)
5. Go back weekly (chack in) (dress nicely)
Current Mood: stressedstressed
Current Music: Belle and Sebastian